The World is in My Hands

The day I woke up and realized he was no longer there to text me good morning, no one to look for me every minute of the day. I knew everything was starting to change. It was either in a good way or the bad. Before he left, I had dreams. Dreams like being a part of the top list in our batch at school, being able to dance the modern dance again, not feel like an outcast of my own family. The family part is a bit painful story. Ever since they knew I had a boyfriend, when I was around they would look at me weirdly. And that would feel very awkward if you were ever in my place.

But after he let me go I didn't notice the change until I thought about it. I was doing better in class, my grades were up for the first quarter. My grades were enough to become an achiever and that's good enough for me. I'm a Senior now, and the last time I ever got an award was when I was a Freshmen. A long time right? So I guess you would've figured out by now that we've been together since Sophomore year and ever since I never got an award anymore. This time I feel allot taller than usual.

So I've been dancing for a long time, I love to dance. But the last time I danced modern was Elementary. Grade 6 to be specific. My entire High School life was spent with boyfriends and cheerdancing. No, cheerdance is not counted as modern dancing. Recently, we had this Street Dance competition for the inter-class. I had allot of new classmates for High School. Many of them just knew about my dancing because of the competition. Now my classmate Kezeah, asked me to dance with them for our Christmas party. And without a doubt, I said "YES". I had the time of my life being able to dance again.-

At present, in my family, I don't feel any awkwardness, nor uncomfortable. I feel very open towards them now when we talk about boyfriends. Especially to my Freshmen cousins, they're very fun to talk with when the topic is about boyfriends. Even though they don't have any, not ever but they talk about their classmates and friends boyfriends. It's a fun world for me, now that he's out of the picture.