Black Star

Black Star

by Ana Irenea Olmedo

December, December,

O how I remember,

 The cold wind against my cheek

My lips kissed by the poorly lit night.

I never thought I'd miss it

Having you by my side.

The stars in the sky,

The stars by the window,

we adore

 I remember you,

I remember love,

I remember it all,

I remember us.

I made up this poem last night just before I went to sleep. My boyfriend has been miles away from me for 5 months now. Whenever I'm at school and I walk past the places where we used to recollect a lot I tend to miss him. This December has been the first time where I actually missed him when I'm at school and I wanted to cry but I can't because I'm in public.

I sent this poem as a group message last night to him and to my friends. No feedback was given. I wonder if he even read it. I just miss him and I'm going to miss him more this Christmas and New Year because he's not coming home. :(

Collegiate Confidence

Ever since I got into college all I could think about was starting fresh and forgetting all the mistakes and regrets I had in high school. I never though about finding love, wanting to be one of those contestants in pageants and representing my college, nor did I wonder if I'd be able to raise my confidence. But I did.

I found the all-most right peers for me, I'm still not sure if they're THE ONE. They make me feel superior at some point, especially because I'm the most fluent in the English language in the group and they look up to me for that. But it's because of them that I'm motivated to keep up with my studies because all of them are grade oriented and they worry a lot about school.

Things changed for me ever since my boyfriend came along. His name is Aljon and he's four years older than me. I've never met a boy like him before. He's so open about himself and he barely hides his feelings and reactions. He usually says what his mind is saying. I look up to him and I've never accepted myself this much before. Plus he helps me a lot with my studies.

Our Finance1 teacher is one of my favorite teachers right now. I like to attend her class and I'm always energized no matter what. I'm putting pressure on myself since the major I'd be taking is Financial Management but she makes things really easy. I'm not afraid to speak up in class which I guess is why my mind is not in a little box during her period.

All of these have contributed to my success in gaining more confidence and I thank these people for helping me achieve that. Having people to push you will only take you half way, it's within your will to meet your standards.