Materialistic

"All I want for Christmas is YOU."

 Now that's the greatest lie said by me right there. I don't want anyone, I already have everyone. I'm happy with all my friends right now but a couple more would work. Anyway, I don't need a guy right now (even though I say I want one, but I don't need one). I'm perfectly happy with my life right now.

What I want is for someone, anyone, to give me a necklace. Any kind, but it'd be better if it were cute or have some meaning to it. Then I'd promise that i won't ever take it off (except at school of course, I'm not that kind of a rule breaker), I'd wear it everywhere I go even at home. No one has ever given me a necklace before, except Jamie Colon my ex-bestfriend (we're still friends though) but it's a bit small for my neck now. It was a necklace painted with silver and has the word "Love" hanging as the center piece of the necklace. I kept it in my room somewhere... So yeah, that's what I truly want these days.

I wanted but I know I didn't need

It was starting to bother me. Whenever I'm around Keith I get the feeling of wanting him to put his arms over my shoulder or around my waist or something. I had proven to myself that I have this little crush on him or a while now. Even before the composing of the songs. It started on the day when I considered him as boyfriend material. Only two people know about my secret crush, I wouldn't want my relationship with my new close friend be ruined; but of course, if someone else is reading this right now my secret is out. If you are reading right now, please don't tell anybody.

The feelings that I got was the relationship that I wanted but I know I didn't need. So I've chosen to lay low and play it cool. Make sure he won't ever have a clue and to keep my mouth shut from telling other people.